Virtue is hard to achieve and yet talked about as if it expected out of everyone. In actually it is not, virtue is something that has to be worked on everyday. It is a goal that has to be constantly attained because once lost, one could never get it back so easily.

I am talking about virtue because I was reading this book about it and how the natural instincts of people is not to do good but the complete opposite. It is much easier for a person to be selfish, greedy, inconsiderate, or angry compared to their virtue counterparts. It is a shame that our natural tendencies is to hurt the people around us instead of helping them out. Why is that? Is being selfish much easier than being humble or just? Or are we really just following the laws of evolution of watching our own backs and not looking out for others. Somehow, expecting the worst of people qualifies as a realist and expecting the good in people qualifies as being naive.

There is plenty of blame to spread around. You can blame the ethics of the business world or politics that in order to get on top you just simply have to put people down. I can blame the scientists like Freud or Darwin, that says that instincts comes first when it comes to humans. But mainly we should partly blame ourselves for allowing ourselves to be affected this way. For allowing the norms of selfishness to get the better of us, for the ethics of greedy politics to dictate our movements, and for allowing ourselves to lose hope despite the millions of things that can be done to improve this world.

I guess we have to believe we can make a difference in this world despite the flaws.

Regret is something that comes when we do something foolish, silly, or something we want to forget. This is the same feeling we get when we remember saying "I LOVE YOU" to someone we don't have those feelings anymore. We feel foolish, silly, or we want to forget that it was ever said. It should not be the case though if something deep down has changed or a realization has occurred.

The last time I said those three words to someone, I felt something special and I don't regret saying it, despite the outcome. It was something I had to go through, a right of passage maybe. To really give your everything to that special someone should not be something we should regret, it should be something that must be admired. If I never said those words or felt them, I would not be as driven as I am today. I will still be looking for that fleeting moment and not the real thing. Of course, there are instances that what we thought was love was actually an infatuation, a crush or just a fling. However, deep down a person knows if he/she has truly loved someone and that is all that matters sometimes.

At the end of day, we should not regret if we really fall in love with someone, because it is not foolish, never silly, and something we should always remember.

Came from a really refreshing weekend, i think one of the best weekends I have for this summer. Got to spend quality time with blockmates and spent sunday being with family. I think when work gets to you and you find yourself not knowing who you are anymore, it is best to return to your roots.

Being with blockmates made me realize who I was and who I want to be in the future. They keep me grounded despite the noise and the distractions the corporate world has to offer. We may aged, but the feeling we have for each other just keeps on growing stronger. I don't know what my life would be if I did not meet any of them. Thanks for all the memories F2!

Being with my family, if there is one thing I learned it is who I am responsible for. As a person trying to find his career and make something out of my life, family may become a burden once in a while. They are the ones who often hold you back because one would feel responsible leaving the home. However, there are days, like last weekend, that I saw myself looking after each and everyone of them. Sure I had my own me time, but bonding with them individually just made things better. More perspective is what resulted from my sunday bonding with family.

There is nothing like going back to see someone's roots, on how one started or how one is going. It is these moments that make life a whole lot sweeter and a whole lot fun to live in.

It has been a month since my last blog and a lot has happened to me during that span of time. Getting more involved with work, which means I go home on a later time and as bonus I also go to work on saturdays as well.

Family is still family. I realize a family is never ever perfect but yet you can't imagine trading them for something else. God gave them to you for a reason, I guess we just have to make the most and best out of it.

There is the saturday night, which was full on fun and surprises (pictures to follow)

Valentines was not a bust compared to last year, and only a few people know why, and I liked how it turned out this year. Seeing people smile and making their day was truly something. (I have to thank Mclovin for including me in his plan but then again he broke his own rule)

So why am I recalling such trivial things of my life? A great writer recently said that "We don't stop loving because we grow old. Rather we grow old because we stop believing in love" I am trying to put emphasis on each day of my life, trying to put each piece together. I know if I appreciate the little things of each day, then I am certain I will not waste a single day of my life. Of course it is always a lot easier said than done, but if one just sits down and reflects, there is so much things we can and should be grateful for. We receive love everyday whether it would be a text of "goodluck" or "have a nice day", to an unexpected phone call or visit, to the company of family and friends. We receive all of these, but we don't know how to accept it or take them in. Instead, they go unnoticed and we have another "bad" day.

So, I am thanking people who have made an impact in my life, great or small. I know I may not see you as I used to, or not talk to you as often as before, but I want to thank you for making my day worthwhile. You may not know what you did for me, but I certainly remember and that I will never forget.

I have been employed for the past six months and I have to say, the workplace is nothing like what you expect it to be when you are in college. I mean, in college, the social background of a person is diluted because of the mixture of different people. Besides, when one is on the same college, it does not matter where you are from, you just do your best to remain. It is nothing like this in the workplace.

Being close with the people I work with, I hear their aspirations and disappointments with their current occupation, and the experience has been nothing but a humbling one. I work with people who have to support a family and provide education for their kids with the salary they are given. They make up for it by doing overtime work so that they have enough to at least enjoy some pleasures in life. When I get my salary, I feel that they deserve it more because I am not working for a higher purpose.

So here I am another pay day feeling that I should have more purpose in my work, more purpose in my life. I look at the eyes of the people I work with, sure they are stressed with work and the occasional problems here and there, but they have this passion because it is another day to be able to put food on the table for their kids, another day to work for their son or daughter's future, another day to make a difference. Maybe someday, I could make that difference...

There was this quote that said "You can only know where you are going if you know where you have been." (Someone who can guess where this came from gets a prize) So l look back at 2007 as a year of monumental changes for me. Spilling over from 2006, 2007 was the year reality set and that I was one parent less and the responsibilities that she handled had to be divided among the kids. It was not an easy task but then again change was never an easy thing and up to know we are still picking up the pieces but not as much.

2007, I have to grow up and finally be an adult. I know realize why the "Lost Boys" in Peter Pan never wanted to grow up, because life as a kid is so naive and simple that it is never hard to be like that the rest of your life. However, that is not the life I want or need to live. It is about having direction and a sense of purpose. Having a job and having a salary is empowering but with it comes responsibilities of having them. Right now I am finding my own steps to walk in the real world, to make my own path, my own destiny.

2007, I realize that one does not need to search for love. If one is worthy of love, love will find it's way to you. Maybe things did not turn out the way I wanted them to be and maybe there is a reason for that. Whatever the case may be, I have to focus on making myself the best person I can be.

To basically sum up what 2007 was about for me, it was about growing up, it was about maturing from a boy to a man. Although I still feel like a boy I hope within 2008 I can look myself at the mirror and see the man the boy was meant to be.

A year ago, I told myself that I liked this girl. She was really special and I can't stop thinking about her. How being in the same vicinity with her makes my heart beat a little bit faster. How if we spend the two of us by ourselves, my sense are more acute than normal and I remember the little details. Like what she wore or how her day went, it was easy to remember these things. This all went by until it abruptly ended eight months ago and that was that.

Now at present, I am still thinking about her. Not because I am super attached, in which case when I think about it I still am. However, if I was to break it down, I realized that she was/is still a good thing for me. It was through her that I learned more about myself than any other girl I have been with. How could ever let go of a good thing? One solution would be find something better, right? Maybe, but it won't be as fulfilling because if you look for something better, you will look back at the first one. Even though she may never know it, she will always be my first.